Where do i go from here ?

So I find myself at this feeling alot more and more each day amd it always leads to this question that I've never seemed to answer. How do you let someone go when deep dwon you can't? He has been gone for 9 years and it still hurts as if it just happened. My cousin and I share the same pain we both lost a parent at a very young age and even though people say that its going to be ok and over time the pain won't be so bad it doesn't help. I mean sure its not stopping me from going to school and enjoying life but at the same time I feel empty.Its like when my dad died it took like half of my heart and no one can fill the space. I write alot so I guess that helps a little but not alot. Some people can read me and know if im hiding my real emotion or not. I hide from my mom because some parents don't know how to help their children deal with something if they haven't been in their shoes. On March 2,2010 I will be 17 and still feeling this pain that will never go away. It sucks I mean like when I turn 18 he won't be there when I graduate he won't be there. So tell me where do I go from here?

Music today

Music today has changed dramatically from the way music was written along time ago. Do you remember The Temptations, The Supremes, Luther Vandross, Diana Ross, Tina Turner, New Edition,etc.. If you don't then you might not know what real music is. Music to me is a creative outlet to let the world hear what you have to say. It could be about a personal experience, or it could be a story. Some kids today think that music should be all about sex, or drugs, or gettin money. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! Songs back in the day talked about falling in love, how their heart was broken, or even if they were you would never really know. To me music today isn't as real as it use to be. When I listen to my R&B or old school it relaxs me from all of the ignorance I deal with through out the day. As the years go on I don't really think music will be the same as it was back in the day. Maybe music is dead and gone.